Apnakarachi Submissions

I look in the mirror,and all I can see,is an unhappy little boystaring back at me.Things have happened in my life,some things I cannot change,but I am the only personwho has to deal with my rage.Im upset because Im all alone,and I feel like I have nothing of my own.I cant take it back,because Im ready to go,because love in my life is something I lack,and a feeling I will never know.I cry all the timebut in front of friends I laugh,why cant they see its really a sad smile?Probably because I make them think crying,is just not my style.I always feel downand people turn away,sometimes it seems as if,I have nothing left to say.People dont want to listento all the hurt I feel,they just blow it off,and tell me its no big deal.I cope with problems myself,because I have nobody on my side,I cry all these tears alonebecause sadness is something that I hide.My friends are friends that never seeif something is really bothering me,they all have their own livesother than to worry about me,I guess my pain,is what they dont want to see.Ive thought about letting goand giving up on life,but maybe something great can happento the rest of my life.The question still stands,"Do I stay or do I leave?"I dont know which one I want,so for now Ill just be me.A lonely little boy,with a broken heart,a lonely little boy,that just needs a brand new star